I feel so bad right now I feel like I am dying I hurt so bad inside. I don't know what to do. I want to to drink so bad becuase I just want this pain to go away. fuck, I can't breathe, fuck fuck fuck fuck dying this hurts so bad. FUCK I can't breathe I can't I can't. Can't I just fucking die and get it over with so I don't have to feel like this anymore? I swore I wouldn't drink anymore 9 years ago. I swore I wouldn't cut anymore a few weeks ago. And now this. WHAT IN THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!?!?!?!?!??!